It’s almost been six years since you’ve gone, and still, barely a day escapes me without thinking of you. I remember six years ago perfectly. I didn’t know it at the time, but it would be our last Mothers Day together. I miss you every day, but on days like this I miss you even more. I will always thank God for the 25 years we had together. I better stop now, because just like at your homegoing service, I find myself unable to properly express myself without an abundance of tears.
Always loving you, and forever missing you,
Your number 4
Good news first: I finished my first draft about a month and a half ago.
Not so good news: I think I want to start all over. I made so many changes, that it has become a new story. I like the new direction, but I feel as if I need to flush it out more. I will start the rewrite in about two weeks. I want to finish this so bad, but I want to finish it right.
Finishing the first draft was a problem for me. I think I was so ready to finish it that I rushed the ending. I know I hate reading a book and loving it, only for the ending to suck because it seemed the author grew bored and threw something together. So, like I said, rewrite.
On another note, I recently purchased a Kindle Fire, which means I have recently purchased a lot of new books. That thing is so distracting, sometimes all I want to do is read. Since most of my print books are packed away, I constantly find myself pressing PURCHASE. Which is probably why I ended up rushing my ending, I couldn’t wait to kick back and read. Thankfully I was able to curb that behavior for a while.
Speaking of Kindle, I think I need a regular one for bed. I’m usually petrified that the KF will fall and hit me in the face. I love to read until I fall asleep, and honestly the KF puts a little too much weight on my sleepy limp wrists.
I’m going to try to make it a point to write in my blog more often. I have the WordPress app on my phone, but ever since I switched from Blackberry to Android I have lost interest. I really do hate touchscreen phones, because typing on them is a nightmare. Anyway, I will try to update more often.
In my mind outlining is a good thing. Every article that I have read about outlines made it sound like a great thing. They all read just alike. “Some writers swear by it, and some run for the hills at the mention of it.” The “yays” make a good point about an outline being a road map. I would love to be so prepared to write that the actual writing process is like passing by landmarks, and arriving at my destination in a timely manner. Instead of the opposite, which is driving in circles, or having to repeatedly backup and take every direction until I find my way.
I don’t know if outlining will be for me, but I’m willing to try.
I remember in English our professor made us do them. She demanded we show our work, so she even graded our outlines and first drafts. Back then I wasn’t even remotely into English, and barely knew what I was doing. Some of the stuff that the professor taught us came flooding back and made sense once I took a more serious, yet, natural interest in writing.
Unfortunately, I don’t recall enough of the little things, so I’m reading everything I can get my hands on (including my college books).
I do remember that doing an outline for a paper definitely made the writing easier. So I’m about to do that now.
My only question now is, is it possible to outline a story after you’re halfway done? I hope so, because that’s exactly what I’m about to attempt.
Lately I have been doing more reading than writing. That block I was experiencing is gone. I think my problem was that I had been writing in a journal almost daily, and then I stopped. When I stopped I noticed that my ideas stopped flowing. So I decided to start writing in my journal again.
My book that I’m writing is getting a major overhaul. Like I think I’ve said before, the more I learn, the more things I feel I have to change.
I have been a little distracted by several things lately though. First the holidays and everything that goes along with that. Plus battling viruses on my laptop. Which scared me, because at that time I had not backed up my work. Then my father passed away a few days after Thanksgiving. Which resulted in me learning that I have another sister. So as you can imagine writing hasn’t been my top priority lately.
However, as soon as I felt that I didn’t have time, new ideas for my book start pouring in. As a result of that, my Blackberry (which I’m writing this post on) is overloaded with my work. Work that I have yet to transfer to my laptop.
Last night was the first time in about a week that I sat for an extended period of time and just focused on writing.
This year has truly been a test for me (which I will cover in an end of the year post), but I really am happy that all my troubles this year led me to my true love of writing.